Testimony – God Restores a Broken Marriage

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One of the more frequent type of emails we have received over the years since we have been online is from married couples, where one of the spouses has left the other one for another partner. The one spouse who has been left behind then starts praying to God to bring their spouse back home.

The pain adultery causes in a marriage relationship is extreme and traumatic, as a broken heart is one of the worst kinds of pain you can go through. For those of you who have been on the receiving end of adultery, you know exactly what I am talking about. You feel like your whole world has been shattered and that you will never be able to trust your spouse again, even though you are asking God to bring your mate back to you as you cannot stand the pain of that broken heart.

For those of you who are still praying to the Lord for the restoration of your marriage, below is a powerful testimony we have just received from a woman by the name of Crystal. Crystal had what she thought was the perfect marriage when all of a sudden her husband tells her one day he wants out of the marriage, as he had been having an affair with a woman online.

As you will see when reviewing her testimony below, Crystal was determined she was not going to lose her good marriage over something like this, so she stormed the throne of God asking Him to move to bring her husband back. Here is her word-for-word testimony, and then I will point out a few key things she did to get God to move on this extreme situation.

My name is Crystal and I’m here to let you know that with man it may seem impossible……but with Almighty God…..NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE…

I made a promise to God and to myself that WHEN he restored my marriage, I would testify and tell the world….I would share EVERY single detail no matter how shameful and embarrassing it would be, in the hope and knowledge that I would someday be able to bring some kind of hope for a hurting wife or husband who would’ve been going through what I once was.

I’ll try to be as brief as possible but I really don’t want to leave any detail out….no matter how small, because it may be the very thing God wants to use to inspire and encourage a stander or prodigal spouse.

I don’t want to apportion blame too much here but suffice it to say we had some in-law issues which contributed greatly to our demise….but that is another story and I want to concentrate on how God showed up and showed off in the mist of my situation. Today is March 16th 2011…. My husband of 1 year and 5 months left me on November 30th, 2010… .BUT…. all thanks and all praise be to Almighty God, he is now back home and we are rebuilding a marriage that from all counts and to the naked eye in the natural realm was dead.

As far as I could see we were the perfect couple……went out together…….stayed home together……laughed, joked……..we were like two peas in a pod……of course we had our regular marital problems….no marriage is perfect……..in addition to the above we also….. argued and sometimes told each other some harsh words…….LIKE EVERY OTHER COUPLE……it isn’t right but it happens…..

In spite of all this , I believed he loved me just as much as I loved him……you could imagine my surprise and heart break when one day after a short disagreement……and I mean short….lasting no more that a few minutes…..my beloved husband packed his clothes and walked out of my life…….

All this happened on Nov 30th 2010…..I held off from calling him because I was still upset and I figured I didn’t do him any harm…..he was the one that stepped out in our marriage and on our marriage…..ours wasn’t a physical stepping as in outside sex….it was an on-going 5 month relationship on the internet, with someone he had been previously involved with.

The days went by and he didn’t call so on December 5th 2010….I called him…..he refused to take my calls so I texted him only to be told that he wasn’t interested in me and I should go on with my life….that I should never call or text him again……..that was like a dagger through my heart……I felt as though someone had literally ran a knife straight through my stomach and was twisting it repeatedly…..but that isn’t the worse yet…..

I persisted in calling him that same day and eventually he picked up the phone…he was as cold as ice……I felt frightened even listening to him……he told me….I NEVER LOVED YOU……I AM SORRY WE GOT MARRIED…..I FELT TRAPPED IN THIS MARRIAGE…..I DON’T LOVE YOU LIKE A MAN SHOULD LOVE A WOMAN…..THE FEELINGS I HAVE FOR YOU IS THAT OF A “GOOD” FRIEND……I DON’T WANT TO BE WITH YOU AND YOU SHOULD GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE…..I’M
NOT COMING BACK…….

I have never felt pain like I did then in my entire life……..it is amazing when you are down on luck how quickly you remember that GOD does exists.

I was a regular church goer and I tithed but I still didn’t have that personal relationship with God…..well God has a way of getting our attention in ways unimaginable….and he got mine.

I cried DAILY AND HOURLY……I felt all hope was gone….I mean how do you get someone to love you again when that person is saying I never loved you at all…..YOU CANT….BUT GOD CAN……

I had built my life around my husband and now he was gone……I felt like I lost the better part of me…..I couldn’t eat….I couldn’t eat ….I didn’t want to socialize and I forced myself to go to work…..but God had a plan…….even though all seemed lost……God was turning my situation around even as I was hurting…..what the devil meant for evil God was turning around for good.

I enlisted the help of three persons…….a Prophetess, an Apostle, and a church Pastor…..these were all spiritual people I knew……and strong men and women of God……I knew I wasn’t strong in my spirit and my faith was way less than even that of a mustard seed.

I still cried every day but I also engaged in some radical and spiritual warfare for my husband…..I spoke the word of God over my marriage EVERYDAY and I prayed hedges of thorns around my husband EVERYDAY…..I pleaded the blood of Jesus over him and claimed my marriage in the name of Jesus.

Remember I wasn’t rooted in God so my prayers wasn’t as flowing as other people but everyday I gain more and more strength and my faith began to soar…..I prayed that God would soften my husband’s heart and remind him of the love we once shared……I asked God to send Godly people in his life to speak to him even when I couldn’t and God heard me….

I think I either bought or borrowed every book on marriage…warfare….prayer…you name it ….every website I could think of…….. And I just wrapped my husband up and prayed what ever pray I could even verbatim from some of those same books…….I became like a one man army…..

At times the devil whispered in my ears and unbelief and doubt settled in….I would call my prayer warriors for encouragement and go to God crying and in a few hours would be right as rain and ready again to go up against the gates of hell for my boo. To make a long story short……Sunday January 16th 2011….I got a text from my husband….who accidently had AGAIN on the 14th January 2011…..told me he felt the same way and I should go on with my life.

He said he wanted to talk and wanted to know if he could come by the house…he wanted to know if I could forgive him for what he did and for us to try again at our
marriage…

I had released my husband and my marriage to God and I knew God was going to do something…. but I thought it would be perhaps a Hi hello…how are you….or perhaps a few weeks down the line he might drop in a call or something……….I had no idea that MY GOD was bringing my husband home that day….that instant…

He told me that after he spoke to me on Thursday….he went to God himself and talked to him and asked him to speak and show him what he should do……..he said from the time he said that everything just went crazy…..everything he saw reminded him of me….. when he went to sleep his dreams were constant replays of our life together….. he started thinking about stuff that happened before and after our marriage that were nothing short of miraculous…..

In short…..God was speaking to him all along but he was too proud to just walk back and admit that he was wrong but he wanted to so much….. He wanted to give our marriage a chance and he loved me and wanted to be with ME.

I give all the thanks and praise to God for what he did……it doesn’t matter what your situation looks like….it doesn’t matter how impossible and dead it seems……it doesn’t matter what your husband or wife is planning……..we plan but God is also planning and he works EVERYTHING out together for those that love the LORD..

DO NOT GIVE UP….THE DEVIL AND EVEN YOUR OWN MIND IS GOING TO TRY TO TELL YOU TO MOVE ON…LEAVE HIM/HER ALONE…HE/SHE DOESN’T WANT YOU…..THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO…..THERE IS NO ONE THAT CAN HELP YOU NOW…..DO NOT LISTEN……even in your tears….cry out to God….when you don’t know what to say…..just say JESUS….nothing more……tears is a language God understands and he is going to work it out…..

This isn’t every single detail of what happened there are parts missing…but my short journey has been nothing but incredible and miraculous…but I want you to know that with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE…

Be encouraged

Notice several key things Crystal did to get God to move on her behalf.

1.  The first thing she did was to fully surrender the entire matter into God’s hand. Notice she said she had faith less than the size of a mustard seed when she first started to approach the Lord for His help.

As we have showed you in our article titled, “Bible Verses on Faith,” the Bible tells us that faith the size of a mustard seed will move mountains. This means that you do not have to have large amounts of faith with the Lord to get the show going with Him. God will take whatever level of faith you are operating at with Him and then move to help you out with your current situation as long as you are directly seeking after His help and are willing to fully surrender the entire matter into His hands.

2.  The next thing she did right was to enlist the aid of three powerful prayer warriors to help her with her prayers to the Lord. This is what is called the prayer of agreement. We already have an article on how powerful of a strategy this is with the Lord. The title of this article is, “Prayer Secret #6 – The Prayer of Agreement.”

3.  Also notice she went into a very heavy seeking mode by searching out every good book she could find on marriage, prayer, and spiritual warfare. The Bible says to “seek” and then you will find what you are looking for. And this woman went into a very heavy seeking mode. I believe when God sees this kind of intense seeking activity, He is really moved, and sometimes that is what will get Him to move to answer the prayer.

4.  Another thing she did when she went on the offensive was to plead the blood of Jesus around the situation. If you have a spouse that has left you for another person, it would be our recommendation to plead the blood of Jesus around them, and then plead the blood of Jesus against any demons who are trying to get in the middle of this, along with pleading the blood of Jesus directly against the person they are having the affair with.

All in all, as you read her incredible testimony, the thing that stands out is her fierce determination that she was not going to let her marriage go, and that she would take a hold of God and keep praying to Him until He brought her husband back home to her.

We want to personally thank Crystal for allowing us to release her testimony on our site, as it will help show others that God can move to restore broken marriages, no matter how hopeless things may look in the natural.

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  1. Thank you to EVERYONE who prayed for me this weekend – it helped ME more than you know! Also, thank you to everyone who WISHED they could pray, but didn’t feel like their prayers would be strong enough or didn’t have the energy to pray for themselves, let along anyone else. I’ve been there and don’t want you to feel guilty – God knows your heart and He will grow you to become MORE than a conqueror!

    God confirmed several things (again) through people like Crystal, the Pastor and his wife (whom I consider to be my spiritual parents), my mother, my sister, others on this site – He’s just amazing! Things these people wouldn’t know… but God knew I know!

    Yesterday, I went to Costco and flipped through one of the Christian devotionals they had. Right on the page I stopped at, was this:

    “Do EVERYTHING in dependence on Me. The desire to act independently – apart from Me – springs from the root of pride. Self-sufficiency is subtle, insinuating its way into your thoughts and actions without you realizing it. But apart from Me, you can do nothing: that is, nothing of eternal value. My deepest desire for you is that you learn to depend on Me in every situation. I move heaven and earth to accomplish this purpose, but you must collaborate with Me in this training. Teaching you would be simple if I negated your free will or overwhelmed you with My Power. However, I love you too much to withdraw the godlike privilege I bestowed on you as My image-bearer. Use your freedom wisely, by relying on Me constantly. Thus you enjoy My Presence and My Peace.” (John 15:5, Ephesians 6:10, Genesis 1:26-27)

    Then, this morning, after my prayer, my daily bible app says “The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor [in marriage]. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners [of adultery] and recovery of sight for the [divorced] blind, to set the oppressed free, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.” (Luke 4:18-19)

    I added the words in brackets, but that’s what happens when you feel God’s presence upon you – you see His word as it applies to the situations He has you praying about. Someone here better receive that Word because it’s yours if you want it and there’s plenty to go around! 🙂

    People are hesitant sometimes to go full steam ahead and so they make escape clauses. For example, the Pastor told me that we prayed about it, it is done, God has heard, and He will bless. We can’t put a timeframe on His work, so even if it doesn’t work out the way we want right away, we have to believe He will work it out for the best.

    I may be wrong, but why would God allow my wife to commit further adultery if that is against His will? If I am His righteous, why would he allow the devil to defeat me in that way? So I don’t necessarily agree with “Well, I’m gonna pray that God will work it out before something else happens, BUT if it doesn’t I’m still gonna trust Him.” To me, that’s speaking doubt. I can either serve a God who works speedily, or one who is wishy-washy, but I can’t serve both. I believe whichever one I focus is the one that will answer me (according to the faith that operates within me), so I’m going to go with the speedy one! Here’s why:

    Ezek. 12:28: “Therefore say unto them, Thus saith the Lord God; There shall none of my words be prolonged any more, but the word which I have spoken shall be done, saith the Lord God.”

    Ps. 31:2: Bow down thine ear to me; deliver me speedily: be thou my strong rock, for an house of defense to save me.

    Ps. 143:7: Hear me speedily o LORD: my spirit faileth: hide not thy ‘face from me, lest I be like unto them that go down into the pit.

    Isa. 58:8: Then shall thy light break forth as the morning, and thine health shall spring forth speedily: and thy righteousness shall go before thee; the glory of the LORD shall be thy rereward.

    Luke 18:8: . . . I tell you that he will avenge them speedily.

    Ps. 102:2: Hide not thy face from me in the day when I am in trouble; incline thine ear unto me: in the day when I call answer me speedily.

    Jer. 1:12: Then said the LORD unto me, Thou hast well seen: for I will hasten my word to perform it.

    Jer. 29:11: For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil to give you an expected end”.

    Rom. 16:20: And the God of peace shall bruise Satan under your feet shortly.

    Mal. 3:10: The Lord whom you seek, shall suddenly come to His temple.

    Heb 4:12: For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

    So instead of me praying “God, please restore my marriage before 4/1,” my prayer is now “God, I have full faith in YOU knowing you’re going to restore my marriage before ANY more adultery occurs.” Everyone’s situation is unique, but trust He’ll work speedily on your behalf, get out of His way, and keep motivating Him with your prayers of faith!

  2. Hey Sonnette…..Rob just brought your post to my attention…sorry I didnt see it earlier:)

    I just said a prayer for you and know my dearest that God is in control……we dont know what he has in mind but our Father knows..
    Right now I pray the favor of God upon you and your marriage….I pray that God would lift the veil that is on your husband’s eyes that he would come to know,recognise and step up in his role as a husband….that he would finally see the light and know that what he is and has been doing is wrong and he has a wife that loves him unconditionally….Amen….
    Dont worry about anything God is already there in the midst….be encourages my sweet:)

  3. Sonnette:

    Done!

    I prayed that God is causing your husband so much mental anguish, pain, anxiety, and grief that your husband counts EVERY second until he is reunited with you! That he will not have a moment of peace or happiness until he commits himself to you and God.

    Pray, fast, and pull out all the stops in preparation for your talk with him! YOU have the authority over YOUR husband, YOUR marriage, YOUR family! Claim it! Plead the blood of Jesus over him, his mind, his heart, over your marriage!

    Go prayer crazy so your neighbors think you’re insane!

    Amen 🙂

  4. Ruby, I agree with u that Hedge of thorns prayer is powerful! I have even been using it to pray 4 other ppl as well in similar situations.

    Sendy u can count me in – I am in S. Africa & I think that wud b today i suppose but i wil b praying. Father God in Heaven I bring Sendy before u now Lord & I pray & ask Father that your Hand be upon Andy throughout the evaluation Father God, Keep him calm, Your word says that you have not given us a Spirit of fear but of Love, Power & a sound mind! I pray now that you will give Elena & family all a spirit of love, power & sound minds & I thank you that your word in Phil 4:3 that says that we can bring our prayer requests & petitions before you & that the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard our hearts & our minds. Thank you Father for a positive & full & complete evaluation that surpasses understanding!! I plead ur blood upon Andy, Sendy & the Family today. Father we know you work in mysterious ways, ways we cannot see or fathom or understand! In the mighty & powerful name of Jesus! AMEN!

    Robert I prayed for you last night as well as Farai – lets pray 4 each other & stand in our authority as children of the most high God!! Lets hold on to our daddy & not let him go until he blesses us!!

  5. Sonnette,

    You got it girl! Believe me, I know it’s easier said than done, but you’re doing exactly what you need to be doing for your marriage and for your acquaintance’s marriage. God is already using you to sow seed into another marriage so he can honor your harvest time. It’s not up to you to harvest – just sow the seed.

    You quoted Hebrews 11:1 – Now faith (as opposed to later faith, meaning we need to be having this faith NOW), is the bridge and the evidence. So, let me paraphrase it this way for you:

    Right-now-faith is the bridge to get you to the things you’re hoping for, to create the things you don’t yet see.

    Throughout all of God’s word, YOU must initiate and God will respond. You faith initiates God’s response. Don’t feel because it’s taking long that it’s necessarily your fault. You may be exactly where you need to be and He’s just busy working on the other person. You need to pray for whether this is the case for you or not.

    In my case, I know He’s working through other people and wanting me to overcome my faith issue (as described above), but I don’t see Him working on my wife’s end. Yet, that’s where my faith needs to be strong as well.

    You can do a certain exercise for 30 repetitions and not feel the burn/pain until the last 3 reps. Those last 3 reps are where your muscle started to experience growth. The other 27 weren’t wasted per se because without them, you couldn’t have achieved the growth in the last 3 reps.

    This is how I believe our faith walk works as well. Don’t give up!

    As for me (other than the obvious), please pray:

    1. That I can fully submit the situation to God and believe 1,000% He will restore my marriage before any further sin occurs.

    2. For Him to soften my wife’s heart towards me, harden her heart towards the other person (and anyone/anything else against our marriage).

    3. That every moment for her, whether awake or asleep, is completely flooded and saturated with loving thoughts and visions of me, our marriage, and reconciliation. She is praying for God to show her a sign, so I am praying in agreement with her, but for God to over do it!

    4. That any thoughts/actions of being outside her marriage to me immediately appears to her as ugly, disgusting, vile, makes her feel sick to her stomach, etc.

    5. Lastly, that nothing will go her way and that she will not find ANY peace in ANYTHING she does until she submits herself to God and our marriage.

    Thank you my beautiful sister!

  6. Farai (and others who are married to non-Christians)…

    I am truly grieved in my heart for you! I have no idea how God can tolerate so much hurt in His heart for His children. I have no idea how Jesus was able to not give into the temptation by the devil when the devil showed Him all of the suffering that was in store for God’s children. A dear friend who is Christian, recently had his Muslim wife leave him. He also didn’t want the marriage to end. I showed him the verse which says “But if the unbelieving partners leave, let them go. Under these circumstances a Christian man or Christian woman is not bound [by a marriage vow]. God has called you to live in peace.” (1 Corinthians 7:15 GWT) The bible also says if a spouse commits the physical (not mental) act of adultery, we are also released from the marriage. However, God always prefers reconciliation (in either case), so I commend you (and others) who have a forgiving heart and want to remain as the light of God in the prodigal spouse’s life. Just pray for His wisdom whether it is His will for it to be your cross or not. I pray in agreement with you and encourage you to read the “Bible Verses About Family” article on this website – it has lots of good biblical scriptures you can stand on.

    Everyone…

    Here is my 2 cents on the ebb-and-flow of this cross we are bearing. We need to find a TON of scriptures in the bible that talk about what we want to happen. Next, we need to read those scriptures out loud whenever we feel down and out because our faith comes by “hearing” the word of God. Also, we need to quote them back to God so He knows we know our stuff – like we’re trying to convince a judge (Isaiah 43:26). We also need to find praise songs that we can “sing” to him when we feel down and out because He inhabits the praise of His people. In addition, I break down on average every 2-3 days (used to be every hour in the beginning). When speaking verses out loud, or singing praises out loud don’t work, go ahead and cry. Just call out the name of Jesus as you cry. Then call someone Godly who can uplift you. This is what I do with all of you, the pastor and his wife, my other prayer warriors, etc. This is NORMAL and not a sign of your weakness. If anything, it shows you are being strengthened and submitting your flesh to death for His sake. It may seem like a vicious circle with no end in sight, but this is what I’ve noticed to be the pattern in my walk. I have no doubt that God will restore my marriage – my challenge is the “when” since my wife is pretty much telling me that on or after 4/1/2012, she will go forth with having sex with this other person. I believe God is dealing with me specifically on this issue – having faith in His timing, letting “patience have her perfect work.” My thinking is “I know God will restore my wife to me AFTER she sleeps with this other person sometime in the future, but CAN He do it before that happens?” In a way, I’m terrified because you can see the reality I am creating in my life because of where my faith is. Yet, I know what His word says about adultery, so my challenge is that He will be faithful to His word and not allow that to even happen. Don’t know if this thinking is scriptural or not, but that is my challenge and where I’m looking to breakthrough.

    My sister sent me the following text today:

    Each day is a new opportunity for a chance to think about what God is doing for us: Do not be led by what your eyes see and ears hear- these things constantly deceive you. Have faith that God will do an awesome thing that even you cannot understand, see, or hear; God and his angels are always working behind the scenes on our behalf to do his mighty work. We cannot see them -we cannot hear them- but have faith. This magic is all happening around us all the time. The greatest of Miracles take the most time to transpire. Something strange happened yesterday. I was so depressed about my situation, sitting in my sunroom I was falling asleep. Then u texted me saying that u wanted me to pray for u bc things had gotten worse. I started crying bc I felt I lacked the strength to pray for myself let alone pray for anyone else. I called [my husband] over to me and said please call ur mom right now. I need u to ask her to pray for me and my brother. I don’t know if u know [my mother-in-law]. This lady is prayer warrior queen. If she can’t do it NO one can. She brings Down heaven and resurrects lazurus! Anyway. He calls her and guess what she is in the middle of doing??? She’s praying in the spirit on a Saturday for none other than ME!! She tells [my husband] that she’s surprised he called bc she was praying a heavy burden OUT if my life and crying. [My husband] puts her on speaker And hands the phone to me and says, mom [my wife] has a few petitions.. And before he could finish his sentence she is yelling in the spirit in tongues : doors be opened, obstacles be moved out of her way, let no weapons formed against me shall propsper!, all those tongues who have lied shall have to confess their lies! And all of this, [my mother-in-law] didn’t know why [my husband] had called. At the end of her prayer, I had told her the reason for my call and we prayed more. She and i also specifucally prayed for U and your family, for restoring broken bonds, for understanding, for reconciling, for love. She prophesied that i would have the right words to say to you to comfort in your time of need. I hope thats what i did today. Then she gave me psalm 20. I just want to share that with u too bc I think it’s appropriate for us both. She also offered to call you directly for her to pray for you if you want.

    I am now praying for everyone on this site every day. I don’t know why, but when I do, I feel a heaviness I can’t describe. In addition to praying in agreement with you where it lines up with His word, I also pray for Him to lift the burden I feel all of you carrying.

    Let me tell all of you something… God is NOT good with addition or subtraction. He is a God of multiplication and division! Deuteronomy 32:30 says 1 person can put 1,000 to flight. A thousand what? Enemies, spirits, and minions. So 2 people should be able to put 2,000 to flight, right? WRONG – 2 can put 10,000 to flight! I’ve counted about 25 people who have commented on this article. Imagine if 25 of us were praying for each other everyday, throughout the day? That’s putting 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 to flight!

    I don’t think there are that many of “them” against us and God. I wonder what kind of breakthroughs we would start seeing in each others lives!?

  7. Hi Robert, I have kept you in my prayer this w’end, keep us updated & let me know specifically (besides the obvious) what to pray for, we will pray for each other 🙂 I am going to be praying for you.

    Funny enough this w’end an I was chatting to a man – an aquaintance of my husband and myself and we got into a conversation and it turns out that he and he wife are going thru the same problems, he has 5 kids (2 out of school)and his wife works away from home, she doesnt want to come home & he suspects she is having an affair and he himself is in an adulterous relationship now. I believe that God is alredi using me as I prayed with him and cud minister Gods word to him and encourage him – and I told him that if he wants God to work in his marriage he wud have to end his adulterous relationship & repent.

    Oh Robert I am soooo sori my friend! At times I feel the way you felt this morning especially after I found out my husband was with the other women again ova the w’end… but as I was walking to work I also confessed Gods word over my marriage especially Hebrews 11:1 – in the natural these things my be happening but God is working in the spiritual! I am so upset with my husband I want to question him about her being around this w’end then I realised that my fight is not against the flesh but against satan so I have decided not to bring it up but to allow God to fight my battles now.

    Farai, you have come to the right place, have a look at the Bible verses on Faith & the Battle Verses – sum powerful stuff! – your situation may seem impossible but with God all things are possible!!! I am going to keep you in my prayers too. Keep us updated – we will all pray!

  8. I am 40years old and have been married to my wife for 16years.I am a saved and a believer but have only been rejuvanated after this crisis.On 2/2/2012 i went home to find that my wife had left with 4 of our children.I was frantic and started searching ,calling everyone she would not answer my texts or anything.24 hours later the police told me my wife and kids were fine but that she had left me and was not coming back.I was depressed and became an emotional wreck,could not work,eat ,etc.
    But God is good all the time and i saw one of my children as they were coming from school.I then received a Parenting Order which does not allow me to see the kids and in it she says she has wanted to leave me for a long time.I am praying that God restores my marriage,that i become a better father and husband.I am also praying for my wifes salvation as she is a Jehovahs Witness, please agree with me as God hates divorce.I believe that God can breathe life into our marriage again.

  9. I’ve been keeping everyone in my prayers this weekend. It hasn’t been a good weekend for me – running low on faith, strength, and patience. Had an argument with my wife. Things don’t seem to be getting better or staying the same – they seem to be getting worse!

    Reached out to the pastor and his wife and he told me 3/31 is still a long way away and God can do anything between now and then. Then I remembered about the 1 day vs 1,000 verse and thought to myself – that’s it… to me, the days are fast at hand, but God still has plenty of time to work things out.

    Then the Pastor said to stop worrying about it because that equals wavering faith, which means I haven’t fully put the situation in God’s hands, which means I don’t fully trust God – that He is able AND willing to carry out His word.

    I may be a battle prayer warrior, but I’m still human and need prayer too! 🙂

    God bless you all.

  10. Crystal my huband volunteers this info. 2 me as I hav told him ova & ova not 2 lie 2 me no matter how hard it wud b 4 me 2 hear that I wud rather hav the truth. So wen he tells me he is going away I get the truth. Satan is the father of lies and my husband has been telling me a lot of lies in order 2 b with the other women.I wud rather know the truth 2 b equiped 2 pray than 2 b sittin wonderin not knowing.I hav been praying and asking God 2 bring into the light all lies.
    Also thank you 4 being my prayer warrior knowing u & robert are praying gives me so much peace. Don’t stop encouraging!

  11. Hello. Things were rough between my wife and I in Jan 2009. Was told the “I love you, but I’m not in love with you” bit. Told I needed to change but she refused to say what it was that I needed to change. For several months as I prayed and prayed for healing, wisdom, and understanding. The day she left in July 2009, I found nude pictures of her and her boyfriend (a married coworker of hers that she’d tried to get me to be buddies with) in a secret email account. I chose forgiveness. I wrote her and wrote her, praising and encouraging her to see what this temptation was doing to our family, me, our two sons (8 & 5), quoting scripture… She continued mistreating me, wrongly accusing me of this & that, eventually seeking a PPO through the court. Not even using half-truths, she completely fabricated events. I took the hint and left her completely alone. A month later I was served divorce papers at work – on my birthday no less. She divorced in July 2010. 8 days later, she married boyfriend #4. She changed churches, told several incredible lies to get others to see her as “justified”. Even getting her mother to go along with and also fabricate events & telling our sons – also to justify.

    Long story-short, our sons have been emotional wrecks. She even alienated one son into claiming child abuse and unsuccessfully got the younger one to do the same in April 2011. Incredible, incredible series of events. She’s done all of this while maintaining a Christian front or facade, which she uses to lend credibility to her sinful and hateful cause.

    A part of me desperately wanted to be the bad guy – to deserve what was happening. Because then it would make logical sense to me. My natural sense of responsibility would tell me to just suck it up, because I deserved it. I’ve read, & read, & read, & read everything I could find on relationships, marriage, infidelity, restoration. Her actions are so typical and uncannily predictable of adulterers or adulteresses. I have a private website of related musings (living4amiracle.blogspot.c). Those here are welcome to visit. I’ve been putting off writing the entire chain of events. Partly because of laziness, mostly because it’s just too painful to mentally revisit & write about. It could be healing, so, I should get on it.

    The book, I Do Again by Jeff & Cheryl Scruggs is very similar and inspiring. The romantic part of me wants to see the miracle of a Godly restoration of our family. I know reconciliation through Christ can make all things new and stronger than before. But I don’t see it happening. She’s married and continues to make things worse.

    I’ve maintained a close relationship with Christ Jesus throughout. These events have certainly been testing but I haven’t given up hope in some kind of resolution. I’ve had relationships with other women since being divorced, but it weighs heavy on my heart and mind. I feel like I’m cheating on my covenant spouse – especially when I think of our sons as they’ve expressed their desires of her and I getting along and being a family again.

    In hindsight, there are things I would do differently – having been through it all. But that wouldn’t fix her inner issues of esteem and poor judgment, choices.

    I truly believe that with God, all things are possible and I’m thankful for encouraging people like you that post here. You’re in my prayers!!!

  12. Sonnette….count me in as well….I’m definetly in agreement with you:)…
    I’m so glad we have this site:)….hun dont mind that you dont have a pastor,apostle etc…it doesnt matter…for me it’s that they were ppl I knew at the time who just happened to have those titles but the titles arent important…..ask God to send GODLY ppl into your life….not just anyone off the road but someone you can talk to and who would listen and not take your business all over the place…someone that can encourage you and strenghten you in the Lord….I’m here and I’m willing to be your friend…you can call on me day or night it doesnt matter 🙂

    One thing I wanna ask….the stuff he tells you about going fishing with her and staying with her sister’s brother etc…..is this info he volunteers or do you question him?…..

    Christine……we’re two peas in a pod….I cant seem to keep off this site either….I get so much encouragement from being on here…..I agree with you totally about what you said about getting a bible verse and what not and recognising it to be a word to you from God….it is such an awesome feeling to know God is thinking about you and remembering you:) ..

    Also when you speak about know Christ all these years but still never really having that relationship with him till now…..girl that is also me…..I paid my tithes went to every service…I was even the worship leader at church but still I didnt know God…can you believe it!…

  13. Thank you Robert – I cannot reali describe how i feel rit now but 1 word – Blessed! by your prayers. Thank you for being my battle prayer warrior!! 🙂 so happy. I was thinking to myself now as I opened this site that God must be with me as he led me to this site – i wud neva hav known that there r otha ppl out their experiencing wat i am experiencing & even overcoming!!

    – what you say makes so much sense – I believe God does want me to press in even deeper than I have & I will! I have printed out the Battle Verses of the Bible and I keep it with me everywhere I go in my bag I will reali get stuck into those verses this w’end & your hedge of thorns prayer! I fully agree with you on if our relationship with God is not growing its dying as over the years I have had ups & downs in my relationship with God but it should only be going up and to do this 1 of the things is to get stuck into his word. Also where my marriage is concerned it went up & down whereas I and the 2 of us within our marriage should have been working on it – improving it all the time!!!

    Please also agree with me & continue to pray for my husbands salvation as I believe that the devil wants to keep him from playing in the church & out of the church thru this adulterous relationship.

  14. Sonnette,

    As you know, I’m not one to address every individual on this forum. I don’t know why, but when I start to write, I feel too much pain and suffering like turning to a radio station that had a million voices screaming in pain and the volume is too loud.

    But I just finished praying for you and your husband, and you can count me in as a battle prayer warrior for you every day! I need you to keep pushing forward in your knowledge of the Lord and battle prayers. Read the articles in this site. God doesn’t want you to stay where you’re at.

    Listen everyone – if you’re not growing, you’re dying. You may not notice it, but it’s the truth. If your marriage isn’t growing, it’s dying. If your walk with God is not growing, it’s dying. THERE IS NO MIDDLE GROUND – DON’T LET THE DEVIL TRICK YOU INTO THINKING SO! That’s what he did with Adam and Eve by saying they wouldn’t die.

    I prayed that the boat would capsize. That they would get bitten by an infestation of bugs. That this fishing trip would be one of the worst days of his life. I prayed in agreement with your hedge of thorns against him.

    I’m pissed at the devil and he’s going to feel God’s wrath through me by the blood of Jesus! You need to get to that point too – not against your husband or this other woman, but against the devil.

    You have the highest authority over your husband! More so than anyone else! Use it!!!

    God is blessing you RIGHT NOW – REACH UP and GRAB IT from Him!

  15. Sonnette,

    As you know, I’m not one to address every individual on this forum. I don’t know why, but when I start to write, I feel too much pain and suffering like turning to a radio station that had a million voices screaming in pain and the volume is too loud.

    But I just finished praying for you and your husband, and you can count me in as a battle prayer warrior for you every day! I need you to keep pushing forward in your knowledge of the Lord and battle prayers. Read the articles in this site. God doesn’t want you to stay where phone at

  16. Crystal, thank you for being here for me & all the other ladies who are going thru this. I have decided that I want to be a prayer warrior for these other ladies as well as God leads me.

    Crystal I myself dont know how I wake up, eat, sleep, pray, talk to my husband, my child, live, without falling apart. With everything I’m going thru, it is difficult but I believe that God has been giving me the strength to carry on, to keep on fighting,praying, believing. My husband like I said I dont know for how long he wud b around agen is going away to stay with the other womens sisters boyfriend – says he needs to clear his mind, confused, needs to think…… (so he says) (whether she wil b around – ur guess is as gud as mine…) during this time i pray hedge of thorns around him! – he loves fishing, says they wil b fishing, once again i felt hurt, felt my world is falling down around me, once again i wil b left alone wit my daughter this w’end like all the other w’ends wen he has been with her, but the grt thing about this time around is that I had immediately submitted the situation and my husband to God, I immediately started trusting God knowing that even tho my husband is gone that God is with him until he comes home again on Mon.

    I am so greatful for your testimoni & all the posts of every1 on this site, it has given me a place to come to, to pour myself out.

    There is one thing I am concerned about & I am hoping that whoever reads this post can help me. Unlike Crystal I do not have a Prophetess, Apostle or good spiritually prayerful ppl to stand in the gap for me. after my husband & i got married we moved to another city & we never reali found a church family since we started living here. I have only been able to spk to a pastor & his wife that I knew this week, they spoke to me & prayed with me & sed they wil continue to pray for me but I feel i need 1 or 2 more ppl i can be in contact with who can really pray with me?

  17. WOW! I’ve been following this conversation for the last few days, thankful for all God is teaching me…I just have to chime in after that last post Robert! Last night I went to the Beth Moore Revelation Bible study at my church and she talked about 2 Peter 3:8. I, too, then got the verse in my daily Bible app…which I thought was so cool. (I love when God does that!) Clearly, God was trying to tell me something…bit wasn’t totally clear what. Then I read the same verse in your post just now…and you made sense of it for me.

    God has been asking me to really step out for Him more and more and today I took a huge step in obedience. At the same time, for almost a year, I have been clinging to a huge promise God made me, regarding my children. Ive seen absolutely no sign of it happening (if anything, all signs point to it not happening)…but like I tell everyone who will listen, it’s not if God makes good on it, it’s WHEN.

    I’ll be 39 on Sunday, and after spending almost 20 yrs spiritually lazy (I accepted Christ on my 19th bday), I am happy to finally be awake. I guess God was waiting all that time for me to wake up. Thank you for putting all that together for me Robert. Praise God that He is so patient with slow pokes like me!

  18. Robert, first of all thank you for your prayers. Secondly, wow!! That last comment was just (cannot find the right word)! I never saw it that way, and you know, I do believe that you are right.

  19. Two things I wanted to share with everyone…

    First:

    I reached out to my spiritual parents yesterday (the Pastor and wife that God chose to make me born again in Christ) and during the conversation, they told me about 2 Peter 3:8 – “One day with the Lord is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like one day.” (GWT)

    Then, this morning, my Daily Bible app had the exact same verse for today. I know this was God trying to tell me something, but I don’t know exactly what. I know we must wait on His timing and, what seems like a long time for us isn’t for Him. Then again, what seems like a long time (1,000 years) may not be so for us (1 day). Maybe my marriage miracle feels like it’s been dragging out for a long time and maybe the manifestation of that miracle is right around the corner? I don’t know.

    I’ve always believed that while the past, present, and future is on a linear scale for us, for God all 3 co-exist. That means He’s already answered our prayer… we just have to catch up to it in our future. No biblical basis for this – just my own thoughts.

    I looked up in a study bible more on this verse and here’s what I found:

    “With Him who always lives it will be as easy to accomplish them at a far distant period as now. If it is His pleasure to accomplish them in a single day, He can do it; if He chooses that the execution shall be deferred to one thousand years, or that one thousand years shall be consumed in executing them, He has power to carry them onward through what seems, to us, to be so vast a duration. The wicked, therefore, cannot infer that they will escape because their punishment is delayed; nor should the righteous fear that the divine promises will fail because ages pass away before they are accomplished.”

    I’m still not sure what He’s trying to tell me. Maybe it’s not for me. Maybe it’s meant for someone else reading this.

    Second:

    I expressed to them that I felt this was such an exhausting struggle. They said that God is true to His promises, but the timeframe I want it in and the way I am applying the Word is MY OWN PERSONAL struggle with God. Then, the Spirit revealed to me Jacob wrestling with the Angel of God.

    Last night, I told God I was NOT going to let go of Him until he blessed me AND my marriage!

    This morning, I did not cry for the first time. I felt an anger rise up within me. But I channeled that anger into my prayers this morning. I pleaded the blood of Jesus as if it was a torpedo and a sledgehammer. Then, I got a hold of this revelation and used it MIGHTILY – if another man can interfere with my authority over my marriage, then that other man has given me authority over his marriage as well!

    Praise God… I used that open door to flood and saturate and suffocate all evil spirits, desires, and ungodly activity operating in his marriage! What a position of power I felt! I don’t know if that’s anywhere in the bible, but I went with what the Spirit revealed to me.

    Then, someone else reveals to me that during their marriage trials, someone told them what I shared with all of you a few days ago – stop the crying, stop being a wuss, take CONTROL of YOUR marriage. It was never taken away from you in the first place, so don’t give it up! Rise up and declare WAR!

    Then this person started praying for mercy for the external adulterer. That adulterer started apologizing to the offended spouse, and needed to go on medication because they started to go crazy and have suicidal thoughts!

    If any of you watched the first Matrix movie, you’ll see that Neo was able to dodge bullets. But when he finally took the offensive and believe in the authority and power he had, he didn’t have to dodge them – he simply commanded them to freeze in mid-air and fall. Then HE went on the offensive against the enemy and won instantly. The journey that took the longest was not the defeat – it was in him building up his faith.

    Maybe that’s what God is saying to all of us – what seems like a 1,000 years to us in our situation is really Him waiting for us to WAKE UP. And, once we do, maybe we’ll have our victory in 1 day?

    God bless you all 🙂

  20. Sonnette……I feel your pain….I’ve been there and sooo many times:(….
    I feel extremly extremly unhappy for you…I read your post and I was shaking my head all the time SMH….you are so strong….I dont know how even me would handle something like that…..but you see….we CANT but GOD CAN….

    You are doing the direct thing that you should be doing…..when I was reading the last post about him wanting his girlfriend to buy a gift for the child I was soooo glad that you said no….sometimes we are so caught up with wanting to please the other person and do everything right in their sight that we agree to things that are just too wrong to be right….

    We agree to everything they want …. every stipulation and every whim they have no matter how ridiculous it is….we loose ourselves in trying to get them to come back….what we dont understand that there are still boundaries and we still deserve respect even if not love…..God doesnt and will not tolerate every single thing we throw at him and neither should we……yes there are times when we need to bend..sometimes even break but in such a case it would serve us well to seek guidance from God:)

    Sonnette I am soo proud of you and I salute you woman of God….you are brave and your attributes are to be admired.

    God is in the mist of this and I do not want you to give up….it is about to get worse but my sister it is going to get better also…..believe that….God is not going to leave you defenseless (spelling)….

    Do not stop praying for your husband….pray hedges of thorns around him day after day….God is our Father yes but remember what a father is willing to do to protect his child….how much more our heavenly father…..do not let your heart become bitter….pray for this other lady as well….my friend Robert on this forum knows a lot more than a thing or two about that….he would be happy to give you some pointers:).

    Do not be afraid to ask God to do some stuff in your marriage…do not be afraid to get radical and ask him to just move some ppl out of the way in what ever way he sees fit and he is going to do it for you….make sure you walk uprightly before him and he will plead your cause….be encouraged.

  21. Thanks Robert for these words. It makes me feel so secure. & that must be what our Father in Heaven wants as he is our Father! our Daddy in Heaven who we can rely on completely! The more I have come to rely on God & his word, put my trust in Him, study & meditate on the word. The more at peace I have been feeling, my appetite is back & I am sleeping much better at night as well, whether my husband is there or not. He came home again yesterday and I treated him with love & kindness, I tried not to question him or to nag him, we spent time together, although I can see when he looks at me, he is confused, the fact that he hasnt come to a decision on what he wants do to yet tells me God is working. I spoke to him this morning about the w’end after next that we should go away together or if he is working to maybe go out for supper & play tenpin bowling & he agreed to that. also he has asked me if the other women can buy our daughter a present I told him no that she cant & if he doesnt tell her I wil tel her myself.& I know he doensnt want me talking to her so i know he wil tel her. She also bought him a valentines gift, a t-shirt which he doesnt like (was hapi bout that) & a mug which i told him to use at work. I found the items in his bag and was very upset but I gave it ova to God. I annointed all my husbands things with annointing oil on Tuesday nit – valentines nit. Right now I dont feel helpless at all in my situation. Despite everything happening rit now I know that I dont have to worry about what is happening in the natural because God is working supernaturally in my life!

  22. Thanks be to God for everyone who has said I have inspired them! Remember to give Him the thanks – I’m just a plain old person like you being pushed to the extremes of my faith and patience.

    I read the posts on here and, even though I don’t address them one by one as Crystal has, believe me… they bring me to tears for what you’re going through! I actually feel a pain in my heart and head when imaging what each of you are going through. You can imagine what I was feeling yesterday praying for all of you!

    I have to say, yesterday wiped me out mentally, physically, and emotionally! I want to address each and every one of you, but I am too tired.

    Instead, I will share what a friend wrote that I feel it is appropriate for ALL of you:

    ‘Words seem so inadequate — how do you deal with what you are going through? Only looking to the Lord.

    First, know that you are under spiritual attack! Only a spiritual solution can protect you, your marriage, and your family! Pray for that — and don’t stop! Always pray — it’s talking with God and sharing your heart. But listen to His Spirit — His Spirit will speak to you and give you comfort in your dark place. But you are right, there are times when we hear nothing and are alone in the darkest of places. And you must wait on Him. And keep praying and seeking Him. The story of Abraham and Hagar in Genesis 16 is a powerful example of listening to so-called advice during a time of darkness, rather than waiting for God to send the light (my favorite is Job). God will bring the vision He has given you to reality in your life if you wait on His timing. Never try to help God fulfill His word. Abraham went through thirteen years of silence(!!!), but in those years all his self-sufficiency was destroyed. He grew past the point of relying on his own common sense and relying on God alone. Oswald Chambers calls those years of silence a “time of discipline, not a period of God’s displeasure.” There is never any need to pretend that your life is filled with joy and confidence — just wait upon God and be grounded in Him (see Isaiah 50:10-11). It is a great gift to be brought to a point where you seemingly have nothing but God.

    Do we trust at all in the flesh? Or have we learned to go beyond all confidence in ourselves and other people of God? Do we trust in books and prayers and other joys in our lives? Or have we placed our confidence in God HIMSELF, not in His blessings? “I am the almighty God…” — El-Shaddai, the All-Powerful God(Genesis 17:1). The reason we are all being disciplined is that we will know God is real! As soon as God becomes real to us, people pale by comparison, becoming shadows of reality. Nothing that anyone does or says can ever upset us if we are built on God.’

    The thing that stuck out the most about what my friend wrote was that at this point in our struggle, we have to place our trust in Him, NOT his promises!

    I was thinking to myself, “How can I not trust in His promise that He hates divorce and that adulterers would NOT inherit His Kingdom?” If I let go of those promises, then what?

    But that’s exactly it – we’re only left with God Himself. He is His promises. Without Him, His promises are meaningless.

    It’s such a small mindshift, you might miss it. But when you change your mind and your heart to rely on Him, His promises are just icing on the cake.

    I challenge you to examine where your faith is currently – in the gutter, ahead of you, on His promises, or on Him alone? I struggle with this same thing several times during the day!

    When you pray, have faith in Him and trust in His promises – not the other way around. Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and… (Matthew 6:33)

  23. Hi Crystal! Thank you for your comment, but I was not always like this. The Lord has really change my heart and is still continuously guiding me in my journey with Him. So I finally talked with my parents, and you know it is amazing on how God opens you to listen and how He changes your heart. My mother had previously talked to me about some of her problems, but I don’t know why I never paid attention, I have always felt a bit indifferent to their problem. I mean I was the one that regularly told my dad after they had a fight to just divorce my mother and end with everything (the fights, insults, jealousy,etc), it seem to me like the most logical solution. I always saw it as a end to all the violence that my brothers and I would have to listen too. Until I accepted Jesus. I am ashamed of my horrible behavior, and have ask forgiveness to my parents and to God, for I really had no say in this matter yet I was voicing my opinion.
    So, after talking with both my parents, their marriage since the beginning was constructed weak. They married because of physical attraction, wanting to build a home and have kids like most people and after reading a book by Joshua Harris ”Boy meet girl” , I was astounded by the different perspective presented!! I mean, my brothers and I, will one day leave the nest to build a home with our God elected partner, and then what of them? Very early in their marriage, there was much love, but little respectful behavior. So, I have been praying to God, to first for them to receive Jesus as their Lord and Savior and to really let Him guide their lives, and their marriage and to make Himself the center of their relationship so that they will learn to really love. Since last time, I posted my comment, God has send me a couple that rarely visits us because the husband doesn’t like to visit (he likes to receive people at his house- he told us so on Friday the 10th), but they have come to spen time with us, and consequently guide my parents. My mother especially has a serious case of resentment on her heart which as also cause a lot of bitterness in her marriage. It has been awing to see how God works in our lives. He does everything so perfectly!!! The husband had backslided from the Lord, but this autumn came and ask forgiveness to my parents for been such a poor example of Christ and this is a man that my dad respects and fells camaraderie with!! He will seriously listen more to him than me! How awesome is God!!! The Lord has also spoken to my mother through the book of Ruth (she has never read the Bible, and when she pick it up, she end up at the start of the book and it really spoke to her, because she was hurt by her mother in law deeply since the arrival of my aunt to Canada.
    But I know that God is working and nothing will stop Him. Bless be He, that renews our hearts and minds, and leads our spirit in Truth. Bless be the name of Our Lord most High.

  24. To Crystal – Thank you soooooo much for your testimony & ur account of the hedge of thorns!! To Robert – Thank you sooooo much for your hedge of thorns prayer! I am going to be using it! I wil try to keep my long story short. I found out on Tuesday last week that my husband of 7yrs had an affair 2yrs ago for 6mths but it broke off, without telling me about the affair he decided to make it work again without my knowledge & of the affair. We were fine again until Dec last year, I trusted God for a job for him which he received through faith & prayer. He then went on a 2wk course where he met a young single women who he is currently having an affair with, to cut a long story short he lied to me about staying over in another town for work reasons but during these w’ends & this time he was builing a relationship with this other women & tells me he loves her, that he does love me and our 5yr old daughter but is not IN LOVE with me anymore but loves her more. I have been wanting him to give me an answer about whether he is staying with me or not but he still hasnt given me an answer, instead he told me that he was going to the movies with her last nit – Valentines day & that he wil b spending the rest of this wk with me and our daughter… who know wen he wil go bac to her again as he is coming home today. My husband used to play in the worship team in church, he plays guitar & bass guitar & used to play skillfully unto the Lord & his name is David. NOt only am I praying for restoration of our marriage but I am praying for his complete salvation & relationship with Jesus, he has had many prophesies ova his life & I believe that Satan is attacking him through this adulterous relationship to keep him out of the church & playing in church. I have copied & pasted ur testimony crystal to read & encourage myself and also alot of the encouraging words spoken by u & robert. I have also printed out ‘Battle verses of the Bible’ and at the moment I am meditating & praying ova them. But I love!!! the hedge of thorns. I believe God has led me to this site to be encouraged and never to give up & to fight fight fight!!!

  25. It’s been nearly 7 incredibly long years since my husband left. The pain has been horrific as you can imagine, but God has taught me so much that I would probably would not have learned otherwise. I don’t know why my marriage has not been restored, but I’m learning to rest in Jesus knowing he will restore what’s been stolen from me one way or another. I’ve stood on God’s Word, spoken God’s Word and promises over my situation, fasted, taken Holy Communion, planted seeds…you name it. One thing though was that I never truly rested. I was always fretting, crying, anxious busy doing things to hurry my miracle along. That’s not resting and trusting God.

    My husband made a false start home a year ago. The other woman had dumped him, and he said he was coming home…was so sorry for all this….was going to spend the rest of his life making this up to me….he was saying all the things I had prayed for for so long. But it ended up worse than ever, and it sent me reeling.

    He now says he wants to try to get to know me again. Says he misses me and wants to start talking to me more. But I am so untrusting now after the fiasco of last year. It was a nightmare that I didnt think I could live through. My flesh wants to run and hide in order to protect myself from the anguish of more lies and false hopes. Our children are so tired of seeing me hurt by him that they don’t ever want me around him again. He asked me to come care for him this past weekend because he had hurt his leg pretty badly, and I made up an excuse not to go! If he had asked me to do this even a year ago, I would have walked across hot coals to his place even though he lives hundreds of miles away.

    At any rate, I’m trusting God to work it all out for my good and show me what to do. I just have to rest at Jesus’ feet knowing He is in control and that he is “perfecting that which concerns me.” I feel such freedom now that I’ve come to this place of peace. I’m sleeping now and not constantly panicking. When we rest, God works. When we work, God rests. Please, dear standers, give it all to God and don’t try to manipulate or constantly do works to try to make your miracle happen. Just rest in knowing that you are His beloved, and He will not withhold any good thing from you.

    Prayers to all!

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