Backsliding God Will Take You Back

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One of the most frequently asked questions we get coming through our site is whether or not God will take you back if you have really backslid from Him to any appreciable degree in this life.

We have many people who were saved earlier on in their lives, and then over the years grew further and further away from God as a result of chasing after their own fleshly pursuits and/or falling into various types of sins they knew were going against the will and ways of God.

Now many of them are at the end of their ropes. They have no where else to go and no one else to turn to. They know the ways they were following in this life were not the ways of God. They had made some serious mistakes with the way they were running and handling their own personal lives.

They know now that they should have turned the reigns of their lives over to the Lord the minute they got saved and from there, should have followed the leadings of the Holy Spirit on a daily basis so God could have led them into the perfect divine plan that He had already set up for their lives.

Now they look back and see how they have really blown it. Many of these people’s lives are now in total shambles, with many of them now being flat broke, along with all of their marriages ending up in divorce.

Some of them are now in deep pits of despair and depression, feeling that there is no more hope for any of them due to the desperate straits they now found themselves in.

God seems so far and so distant to many of them, that they feel there is no way that He would ever take any of them back again because they have simply pushed the envelope too far with Him with how they have handled and run their lives over the years.

To any of you who are now in this state, I am here to tell you, that no matter how far you have backslid from the Lord, no matter how many bad and evil sins you may have committed against Him, He can still take you back and start all over again – no matter what your age, and no matter how bad your current condition is right now.

Not only is our God a God of big miracles, but He is also a God of second chances. God loves to take His people back when they have backslid from Him, build them up and fully restore them again, and then place them on the path of His perfect will for their lives. It is never too late to start your show all over again with the Lord.

In this article, I am going to give you three very powerful things that will prove to you, without any shadow of a doubt, that God will take all of you fully back if you will only reach out to Him and fully commit your entire life back to Him.

There is a brand new life and a brand new fresh start for each one of you if you will only humble yourself before the Lord, confess out all of your known sins before Him, fully surrender your entire life back over to Him for His direction and handling, and then be willing to work with the Holy Spirit to start to clean up your life and any wreckage that has occurred over the years that you have backslid.

If God created our entire world in 6 days, then He will have no problems in being able to clean up your life and give you a brand new fresh start.

If the Bible tells us that nothing is impossible with God, then there is nothing in your personal life that He cannot get properly cleaned up – no matter how dire and how hopeless things may look to you in the natural right now.

All you have to do is believe that God can do this for you, and then reach out to Him and ask Him to take you back – right as you are right now.

If you do, God will then take you into the palm of His hand and start to bring you up and out of your broken and defeated life and begin to give you a brand new life in Him.

Again, no matter how many bad and evil sins you may have committed against the Lord over the years, He can still fully forgive you and fully restore you.

You are not a lost cause and your current situation is not a hopeless situation. The blood of Jesus Christ can cover every single bad sin that you have ever committed against the Lord.

Now I want to give you three very powerful things that you will really need to grab a hold of if you want to get God back in your life.

The first one is on the story of the prodigal son. Here is the passage from our Bible giving you the complete details as to what had occurred between a father and a son after he had left his father many years before. This story will apply to many of you right now who have backslid from the Lord over the years.

1. The Story of the Prodigal Son

Here is a very powerful story that you really need to grab a hold of so you can see how God the Father will do the exact same thing with each one of you – no matter how far you have backslid from Him, no matter how many bad sins you have committed against Him, and no matter how many years you have been completely away from Him. This passage is titled “The Parable of the Lost Son.”

“Then he said: “A certain man had two sons. And the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the portion of goods that falls to me.’ So he divided to them his livelihood.

And not many days after, the younger son gathered all together, journeyed to a far country, and there wasted his possessions with prodigal living. But when he had spent all, there arose a severe famine in that land, and he began to be in want.

Then he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. and he would gladly have filled his stomach with the pods that the swine ate, and no one gave him anything.

But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!

I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants.”

And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him. And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

But the father said to his servants, ‘Bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet. And bring the fatted calf here and kill it, and let us eat and be merry; for this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ And they began to be merry.

Now his older son was in the field. And as he came and drew near to the house, he heard music and dancing. So he called one of the servants and asked what these things meant. And he said to him, ‘Your brother has come, and because he has received him safe and sound, your father has killed the fatted calf.’

But he was angry and would not go in. Therefore his father came out and pleaded with him. So he answered and said to his father, ‘Lo, these many years I have been serving you; I never transgressed your commandment at any time; and yet you never gave me a young goat, that I might make merry with my friends. But as soon as this son of yours came, who devoured your livelihood with harlots, you killed the fatted calf for him.’

And he said to him, ‘Son, you are always with me, and all that I have is yours. It was right that we should make merry and be glad, for your brother was dead and is alive again, and was lost and is found.'” (Luke 15:11-32)

Again, this is an extremely powerful story that you will all need to grab a hold of if you have backslid from the Lord to any appreciable degree in this life. God the Father made sure this specific story was put in the Bible so as to let everyone know that He will take you back if you have fallen away from Him for any length of time in this life.

Notice what got the younger son back into the good graces of his father – it was his truly repentant heart.

He knew that he had did wrong and that he had sinned against both his father and God Almighty Himself and was not afraid to admit it directly to him.

He was coming back to his father with a truly broken, remorseful, and repentant heart, as he had found out the hard way that he had been living his life in all of the wrong ways with the blessings that his father had initially given to him.

If the father in this story was willing to take his son fully back into his good graces as a result of the son admitting his sins and transgressions against him, then God the Father can do the exact same thing with each one of you – if you will only be willing to admit that you have done wrong in His sight and that you have followed the wrong path in this life.

This parable dramatically shows you the mercy and love that God is capable of showing you if you will only humble yourself before Him, confess out your sins and transgressions before Him, and then ask Him to take you back.

2. God Will Forgive All of Your Sins

The next thing you will really need to get a hold of is that God can fully forgive all of the sins you have ever committed against Him, especially the sins you have committed against Him while you have been in this backslidden state with Him.

Again, there is no sin so bad, so evil, and so vile that cannot be fully forgiven and fully washed away by the blood of Jesus Christ.

No matter how many marriages you have been through, no matter how many people you have fornicated with, no matter how many drugs you have taken or experimented with, no matter how many criminal enterprises you have been involved in, God can still fully forgive you of all of your personal sins, no matter how bad and how extreme some of them may have been.

Here are some of the most powerful verses in the Bible showing you that the blood of Jesus Christ can fully wash away every single one of your personal sins:

  • “Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” (Hebrews 4:16)
  • “Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28)
  • “Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.” (Psalm 55:22)
  • “My little children, these things I write to you, that you may not sin. And if anyone sins, we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.” (1 John 2:1)
  • “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)
  • “Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, so that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord.” (Acts 3:19)
  • “I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for My own sake; and I will not remember your sins. Put Me in remembrance; let us contend together; state your case, that you may be acquitted.” (Isaiah 43:25-26)
  • “There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus …” (Romans 8:1)
  • “Come now and let us reason together,” says the Lord, “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow.” (Isaiah 1:18)
  • “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away, behold, all things have become new.” (2 Corinthians 5:17)
  • “As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.” (Psalm 103:12)
  • “In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of His grace.” (Ephesians 1:7)

All of these verses mean exactly what they are saying. Notice some of the extreme wording that God is using when it comes to His ability to be able to fully forgive you of all of your personal sins under the shed blood of His Son Jesus.

First of all, that His throne is a throne of grace and mercy. The word “grace” in this verse means the “unmerited mercy and favor of God.” In other words, God will have mercy on you, take you back, and fully forgive you of all of your sins if you will just make the effort to come back to Him with a humble, contrite, and repentant heart.

In the second verse, Jesus is calling out to all of those who are in a very heavy laden state. Many of you who are in this backslidden state are now under a very heavy yoke of bondage and fear due to the desperate straits you now find yourself in.

Jesus is now offering every single one of you a way out. He is telling you in this verse that His yoke is easy, that your burden can once again be made light, and that you can find real rest and peace for your souls if you will just come back to Him right as you are now and fully submit yourself back to Him.

Notice also that if you fully confess your sins before God, that He will be faithful and just to fully forgive you of all of your sins and clean you up from all of the unrighteousness that has occurred from those sins.

In other words, you can be made completely whole and clean again if you will just come before the Lord and personally confess out all of your sins to Him. All of the slime that you now have on you from your past sins can be completely washed off you by the blood of Jesus if you will just take the full forgiveness that He is now offering you.

To really drive home the point that God can fully forgive all of your sins, He uses some additional extreme wording in the above verses such as that all of your sins can be “blotted out,” that He will “not remember” your sins, that your sheets will be made as “white as snow,” and that your sins will now be removed from Him as far as “the east is from the west.”

The last verse really says it all – that we simply have full forgiveness for all of our sins through the blood that Jesus has already shed for all of us on the cross. As a result of being able to have all of our sins fully forgiven with the Lord, the Bible tells us that we are now all “new creations” in Jesus, and that all of the old things from our past have now “passed away.”

Again, to any of you who have backslid to any appreciable degree in this life, you can now have your very first love Jesus Christ come back to you if you will just do your part and reach out to Him. Jesus is right there waiting for you to come back to Him. He can take you back right now, right where you are standing at, and start all over again with each one of you, no matter how bad things may be in your life right now.

3. The Love and Mercy of God

To add the icing on the above cake, here are some more verses that will show you how loving and merciful both God the Father and Jesus Christ really are. These verses should be meditated on and grounded on, as they are all giving us very powerful revelation into the nature and personality of God Himself.

If you feel God is simply too far away from you and that there is no way He would ever take you back – again, study these next set of verses very carefully and then add them into the ones just listed above on forgiveness.

Put both of these kinds of verses together and the Bible is telling you loud and clear, that God will take you back if you will just make the effort on your end to reach out to Him.

It really is that simple and that easy. You reach out to God and then He will start to do the rest. He will help you get your life back in order and put you on the perfect divine path that He already had set up for your life before you were even born into your mother’s womb.

  • “… But You are God, ready to pardon, gracious and merciful, slow to anger, abundant in kindness …” (Nehemiah 9:17)
  • “The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in mercy.” (Psalm 103:8)
  • “But You, O Lord, are a God full of compassion, and gracious, longsuffering and abundant in mercy and truth.” (Psalm 86:15)
  • “Return to the Lord your God, for He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness …” (Joel 2:13)
  • “The Lord is gracious and full of compassion, slow to anger and great in mercy. The Lord is good to all, and His tender mercies are over all His works.” (Psalm 145:8)
  • “The Lord is good; His mercy is everlasting …” (Psalm 100:5)
  • “For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His mercy toward those who fear Him … But the mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear Him.” (Psalm 103:11,17)

These verses are all very strong and powerful verses. These verses are giving us an incredible glimpse into the mind and personality of both God the Father and Jesus Christ. Notice the words “mercy” or “merciful” are in every single one of these verses.

If you are in a backslidden state with the Lord, then you will need both the love and mercy of God on both you and your life. The mercy of God will allow Him to take you back and start working with you all over again.

And all of these verses are not only telling you that our God is very merciful, but they are also telling you that He is “abundant” in this mercy. In other words, God is full of love and mercy and He wants to fully extend it to you if you will only do your part and recommit your life back to Him.

According to some of my Bible Dictionaries and Commentaries, the word “mercy” means the following:

  • Compassion or forbearance shown to an offender
  • Kindness, loving kindness, unfailing love, tenderness, faithfulness
  • To feel or show compassion, to love deeply, to show pity, to tenderly regard someone, to tenderly love
  • A divine quality by which God faithfully keeps His promises and maintains His covenant relationship with His chosen people despite their unworthiness and unfaithfulness
  • The compassionate disposition to forgive offenders or adversaries and to help or spare them in their sorry plight

These definitions perfectly spell out what the mercy of God is all about. Again, to any of of you who are in this backslidden state with the Lord, meditate on these verses and definitions on the mercy of God, and realize that God will take you back and give you a full second chance if you will just make the effort on your end to reach out to Him.

How to Get Back on Track With the Lord

Again, I want to reiterate, no matter how far you feel you are from God, no matter how many years you have been away from Him, and no matter how many bad and evil sins you have committed against Him, God can still fully take you back at anytime and start to work with you all over again just like the father did with the prodigal son in the above parable!

It is never too late to try and get the show going back with the Lord. Moses was 80 years old when God called him out of the desert to embark on and complete one of the greatest deliverance missions of all times.

Moses worked for God on this deliverance mission with the children of Israel from the ages of 80 years old to 120 years old.

So it is never too late to recommit your life back to the Lord to see what He can still do with it with what little time you still have left down here.

To those of you who feel like you have been in a backslidden state with the Lord for quite a number of years, and would like to recommit your life back to the Him and enter into His perfect plan and destiny for your life, here are the steps we recommend that you take to get yourself back on track with the Lord.

1. The Full Surrender

As we have said over and over again in many of our articles, the very first step you will need to take is to make a full and complete surrender of your entire life over to the Lord.

You have been running your life over all of these years and now your life is in a state of total shambles as result of trying to do everything out of your own intelligence levels and out of your own flesh.

You will now need to turn the reigns of your life back over to the Lord and let Him run your life from here on in, not you or anyone else in your life.

We ask that you go to our article titled, “The Full Surrender” in the Bible Basics section of our site. Read this article in its complete entirety and then do the full surrender prayer that is in there if you are in complete agreement that the Lord should be the One who should be running your life from here on in.

Once you make that full surrender to the Lord as explained in that article, then God will start to move to help clean up your life and get you back into the perfect plan that He has set up for your life. But your first part will be to make that full surrender to Him. It’s your all for His all.

2. Confess All of Your Known Sins to the Lord

The next step we would recommend you take is to take a piece of paper, go back in memory lane, and write down every single sin you can think of that you have committed against the Lord over all of those backslidden years.

After you have all of them written down, then humbly go before the Lord in prayer and confess out each one of these known sins directly to Him and ask Him to fully forgive you and wash you clean from all of these sins by the blood that Jesus has already shed for you on the cross.

Tell God that you are really sorry for rebelling against Him over all of these years and that you now want to do things His way, not your way – and that you now fully realize that He should have been the One running your life over all of these years, not you or anyone else in your life.

Have a good, heart-to-heart talk with the Lord, pouring yourself out to Him with everything that has occurred to you in all of those backslidden years. Also, be open and sensitive to any specific sins the Holy Spirit may bring back up to your remembrance that will need to be confessed.

Bare your soul, bare your heart, and bare your emotions with the Lord. Do not be afraid to let it all out with the Lord.

This type of deep, heart-to-heart talk with God could last for several days, if not several weeks. Stay with it as long as you feel like you want to so you can get everything off your chest that needs to be said between you and the Lord.

The Holy Spirit will also be helping to guide you through this kind of emotional talk and discourse with the Lord.

3. Re-establish Your Personal Relationship With the Lord and Start Growing in Him

After you have made a full and complete surrender of your entire life over to the Lord and have fully confessed out all of your known sins to Him, then let it go, take your life one day at a time, and start to re-establish your personal relationship with the Lord and start growing back in Him. This will not all happen overnight, but over time.

Here are some suggestions to get all of this going again with the Lord:

1.  Start reading your Bible on a regular basis so you can start growing in the Lord again.

2.  Join a good, Spirit-filled church so you can get back into the flow and start fellowshipping with other believers.

3.  Keep the communication lines between you and the Lord always open and pray and talk to Him as much as you want. We have a very good article on seeking after the Lord.

The title of this article is, “Seeking after the Lord With All of Your Heart.” This article will show you how you can start to establish a closer and much more intimate personal relationship with the Lord.

4.  Use this website, as we have many articles covering all of the main basic areas of the Christian walk. These articles will help get you up and running in no time in the knowledge and ways of our Lord.

5.  Be very open and sensitive to any specific leadings you will receive from the Holy Spirit. You may need God’s help in cleaning up some of the wreckage that may have occurred in your life. God will start to guide you as to what to do and how to do it so you can get your life back in order.

God will also be setting you up and guiding you into whatever His perfect plan will be for you in this life.

It is the job of the Holy Spirit to lead you in this life, and He will now be the One to take complete charge of your life and guide you as to where He will want you to go and what He will want you to do so you can fully accomplish everything that God will want you to do for Him in this life.


Again, we cannot state this strongly enough – if any of you out there have fallen into some real hard times as a result of trying to do everything on your own, and you have seriously backslid from the Lord over all of these years, there is still hope and a brand new life waiting for you.

And that brand new life and hope will be found in your very first love, Jesus Christ, who you left years ago.

Jesus Christ is still your first Love and Savior, and also your Lord if you will just allow Him to take the reigns of your life and start over again.

You may have left your first Love, but Jesus has never left you. Jesus will fully take you back if you will just humble yourself before Him, admit your wrongdoings and sins before Him, and then ask Him to take full and complete control of your entire life from here on in. Your new life can immediately begin the second you fully surrender your body, your soul, your spirit, and your entire life back into God’s hands.

You do not have to remain bound up and in torment for the rest of your earthly life if you have made a real mess of things as a result of trying to run your own life. God can still take you back at anytime and start all over again with each one of you, no matter how bad things may be in your life right now.

You can once again be that brand new creation that God has made you to be in His Son Jesus.

You can once again have all old things pass away by the power of the Holy Spirit now working for you.

You can now be given a brand new life with a brand new direction, except this time it will be God’s direction for your life, not your direction or anyone else’s direction for your life.

God will now be your Lord, your Deliverer, your Helper, and your new Employer. You will now work for God, live for God, and die for God. And with God now being the One who will be running your entire life from here on in, things will now start to turn around for you.

Now you will start producing the real fruit that you should have been producing in the Lord years ago. Now you will find who your true soul mate is going to be if you are not married yet and if it is in God’s perfect will that you get married in this life.

Now you will find the job or jobs that God will be wanting you to work at. Now you will be finding out what your true calling and purpose is going to be in this life, since God will now be leading you into your true divine destiny with Him.

One of the best verses in the Bible that perfectly sums up what the big picture is really all about is the following verse:

“Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it.” (Psalm 127:1)

Bottom line – unless God is the One who is building up your life in the direction that He will want it to go in, you will end up laboring in vain when it is all finally said and done.

Sooner or later the house you are attempting to build in this life operating out of your own efforts and wisdom will come crashing down on you.

And when it does, you will have absolutely nothing to show for it as far as the Lord is concerned, since you did it operating out of your own will instead of His will – and you will thus end up wasting your one and only opportunity down here to accomplish whatever God’s perfect best would have been for your life.

You only have one shot, one window, and one golden opportunity to leave your mark in this world, and that can only be done by operating in God’s perfect will for your life, not your will.

To those of you who have already learned this lesson the hard way, you can still get back on board with the Lord at anytime and start a brand new life with Him.

God can still do big and great things for you and through you with whatever time you still have left, but He has to be the One to run your life, not you or anyone else.

One of the greatest heroes in the Bible, Joshua, said to choose this day who you will serve. He chose God and as a result, he ended up becoming one of the greatest heroes in the Bible.

Let God do the same thing for you. It is never too late to step into your true divine destiny with the Lord – no matter what your age or what your current situation is!


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  1. What can I say your writings from Jesus has revived me and given me the chance that I thought I could never have with God again. I felt very low in spirit and far removed from the God and my saviour that I knew loved me and I him. Thank you so very much my love in God and Jesus goes out to you. God bless you

    • Thank you from the bottom of my heart which I now know belongs to Jesus my saviour. I find i cannot live without him. May the Lord bless you yours in the Lord Sue

  2. Michael I want to say thank you for such a great site. I have been struggling with my faith for 25 years. I recently had a terrible event occur in my life, that I now realize was the work of Satan. Over the last 4 days I have been searching for peace, I have contemplated terrible solutions, but I am so glad I found this site. I have been reading your articles and comments for literally 2 days straight. I really took this article and the complete surrender to heart again thank you. Today has been spent on faith and removing the anxious feeling of depression. About 3 hours ago I felt my first peace in several days. I felt my life was spiraling out of control. I know my Jeremy is not over, but the guidance on letting tomorrow worry about tomorrow and the knowledge that no matter what I have no control of events that will happen 2 years from now or 2 minutes from now, somehow brought peice. I visualized giving god that 50# bag as his worry. Tomorrow I am going to church for the first time in several years and will stand and ask that the lord forgive me and take my burdens. I can’t explain where the peace came from it just slowly set in over several hours of praying.

    I just wanted to say thank you and god bless.

  3. the lord was furius about me and i was still seeking how i will go back to him since i transcrase to his ward but now i,m happy since he will get me back but the duty will be his.

  4. HELP! When I was a young adult I attended a church of false teachers. I did all the steps they told me to do and was an active member for 3 years. Then I slowly slipped away until I stopped going all together. They told me that if you left the church you were leaving God and going to hell. I believed that lie and prayed an apology to God for leaving. I then returned to a life of sin even worse than how I lived before. I felt nothing, no remorse, no guilt. Fast forward 15 years and I am searching for God and answers. When I dwell on my past I often fall into depression and the vicious cycle of self pity and self loathing. I fear becoming like Judas. I wallow in worldly sorrow rather than godly sorrow. I don’t know how to change that. I think that people receive the Holy Spirit at baptism when the person baptizing the other person puts their hands on them and transfers the Holy Spirit, but if I was baptized by false teachers, then I never received the Holy Spirit and therefore struggled in my false faith and ultimately gave into sin. So after on an off again study of the scriptures over 15 years, I came to the conclusion that I am not saved, never was, and never received the Holy Spirit. So what now? I know the “steps” but I don’t want to put any faith in myself following the “steps” because it’s not the steps that are the problem, it’s my heart. Anyone can say the sinners prayer. But my heart is hard and I don’t have godly sorrow and therefore am unable to repent. Isn’t it God to grants us the ability to repent? How do I obtain godly sorrow? How do I keep from falling into that same worldly sorrow pattern?

  5. Hi ,
    I would really like to thank you for this article…i backslidded for many years now though i was serving in the church. I try to come back to God many times but satan defeats me with addiction, hopelessness and doubt and fear but after reading this article, i am so encouraged and strenghtened. I will go ack to my father God and make my ways straight with him. God bless you .

  6. After reading this article and also the comments following, I wondered at first at the number of people who are also going through the same thing as I am. It soon became clear that my situation isn’t unique after all which is somehow encouraging. Then the next thing I was crying for those who appeared as if they had lost all hopes of ever getting back to God. I will employ every strategy that you have recommended here until I am restored. May God have mercy on all of us whether backslid or in good standing.

  7. To Autumn and all folks here writing:
    Never give up the hope you have in Jesus. No matter what horrible circumstance, he will do what is best for us. Yes, keep praying, hoping. Without hope, what is there? Remember the verse….Romans 8:38-39. This verse covers it all….!

  8. My story is really complicated and I hope you can help me. God called me to Him when I was 19, but for two years I was in a church that spiritually abused me and kept the truth from me. I was afraid of God and hardened my heart to Him many times over the course of the two years I was in there, but at the same time wanted to please Him. God also called me into a specific calling that I’m 100% sure of because He confirmed it through scripture many times and even though I wasn’t aware of it amongst everything else, He was also making a way for me to enter into it during this time, too.

    I left that horrible church in 2015 and started going to the one that I’m at now, but all summer I was a mess emotionally and I hated God for what I’d been through. Even though I hated Him, something deep inside wanted the kind of relationship that I saw other Believers having and wondered if I was so bad and evil that it wasn’t possible for me to. I ended up getting baptized that August and God completely changed my life that day, showing me that I’d been deceived by a cult when I was in my old church and that He had a plan for allowing me to go through that in addition the call He had placed on my life when I was still in it…to help those who are deceived. For the first time in my life, I was in fire, understood scripture, was growing in faith and was doing all I could to please Him in every way. Life was perfect or as close as it could get to it and God literally blessed me with everything I wanted.

    Unfortunately, things didn’t stay that way for long. I was still struggling really hard with legalism in some parts of my life and made some decisions thinking that I was doing what God wanted me to when I wasn’t. These were things I thought I “had” to do to please God and keep myself good enough to keep all of what He had just brought into my life. Making these decisions caused me to backside and for three years I have been struggling in my faith so much because of grief over what doing what I did caused me to lose. I know that I let God down and also believe that everything I have done is so bad that God is now going to remove the original callings He gave me back there as a consequence. Even if God does still miraculously walk in them, I know that my life will not be as good as it would have been if I hadn’t done what I did and I apologize to Him every chance I get. What they don’t tell you is that even if God does take you back, your life will not be as goid as what it was supposed to be and I know that God will always be disappointed with me for not getting it right when I had it the first time. I would give anything for another chance, but what’s gone is GONE forever and I will never see it again no matter how pleased He might be with me. Lord, I’m so sorry…

    • Thank you for sharing Lily. That’s another reason im mad at God. I was deep in commune with him when out of the blue witchcraft hit me and he went ghost! I did not backslide, I ran to him and he was silent. The longer he ignored me the more I slipped into backsliding. I’m on the ledge now and dont think he cares. I wasn’t sitting around wanting to sin. It literally hit me and while I was trusting him on a promise. He took off and I’m left without him and I’m losing it. He literally is watching me and doing nothing to relieve my mental anguish. If I had been tempted into sin then I would feel better and repenting with a true heart but I woke up like this! There is nothing i could have done to stop this. Why did he let the demons do this to me?????? Does he want me to fall way??? I’m so distraught.

  9. Dear Sir/Madam,
    Hope your well?,
    After doing a Google website search in “Will God Take Me Back”?.I found your website at complete random to explore your version/s about my subject and had a read and re read to try to understand where your coming from?, and I am suspicious of even getting one thing nice from God after I declared my sins to him and I am just expecting God to fly off th handle in anger ness and even give me a sample of his thundery response and deadly lightning strikes.I can even be looking at being banned from heaven by given the boot after I declared my sins to him.I am expecting to be told by Jesus he didn’t die for me as a result of my sins and he sent me to the furnace to make me pay off my sin rated debts which wasn’t paid off on day one,as it was an eternal sin related debt and an eternal payment was needed to pay it off,and will remain dead as a result without any hope of getting bailed out during my time paying off my debts I still owe Jesus.I didn’t know my sins would do this to me and what a way to go?..

  10. I have also been far away from God and at 38 years old find my life on the verge of collapse. I have thought I was a ” good “person but know now that there are sins of the flesh I commited against God. I have fallen so far and have thoughts of suicide. I was in the world and living for its short term pleasures. Im almost broke and I struggle with surrender. I just want to sleep and forget everything. I was pretending to be a Christian and now I was just a failure and afraid to tell my family about my mistakes. My parents are not true believers, but my mom prays. I want to build a new testimony and have my life restored. I jusy thought I would live under my own power. I feel guilt and despair and cope by chain smoking all the time. I feel ashamed of how far I have fallen away. Please pray for me. I find myself just watching sermon after sermon on youtube. The Devil is a powerful adversary. My mind bacame poisoned against God asking why he let evil take over the world. I pushed many people out of my life and felt sooo lost. I hope God can give me direction. Great article but the world was in dark times and im a terrible sinner. Hoping for restoration. A lot of regrets. Im very scared and losing faith. Im sorry God.

    • BELOVED JEREMY, i got broken by your confession and it chilled me to the bone. but i have a sure word from God to you, Psalm 34:18, the Lord is Near to them that are of a broken Spirit…… you have reached where God will heal your life and give you peace, just turn from where you are now totally to God, tell Him you wont do anything anymore unless He does it in you, seek the Lord alone in prayer and study your Bible asking God to Help you to sink deep in His love. he will surely reveal His loving self to you

    • Jeremy, while the LORD is working with you and not against you, as you have been created to be a great man of GOD, who is under scrutiny until you figure it out.

      But, the true answer is to pray hard and bathe in the scriptures until the LORD answers you. If you are not working or visiting, pray. Also, you need to pray for victory when you ask the LORD to send someone to you, or direct your path to someone to confide in, to help you work out your deep thoughts with whom you can trust your life with, and they will listen and be your helpmate. Do not let your pride and your thoughts of disappointment stop you from trusting your mother, if that is all that is holding you back. Your mom is old enough to have heard and seen the damage in many people’s lives, and she loves you more than anyone, except GOD. If she’s been a good mother, then her heart is in the right place for you and to help you.

      May GOD bless you abundantly! Be Blessed On Purpose!!

  11. I too thank God for His Tender Mercies that He Has For me. And thank you for These articles more especially the”Full Surrender”.
    Because I once Sinned against God and I felt like That was the end of my life But to your encouraging Words I felt that God is still with me so long as I had to Repent with deeply sorrowed heart.
    May God Richly Bless You!

  12. Jesus had been telling me to surrender something out of my heart for the past 2 years. I’ve been deceiving myself and others saying that I had surrendered it but in reality it’s still in my heart which has caused the sin of disobedience to come on my life. I’ve attended a church since I was about 10 and the Lord really speaks in this place and it comes to past so you know it’s nobody but Jesus speaking. As a result I have angered God and frustrated his grace on my life. Yes God is full of love and forgiveness but He can also bring His wrath on the children of disobedience and I’m in disobedience. As a result I have taken up the spirit of the devil- not that I wanted to but that’s what happens when you try to control your life and walk contrary to God and His word. I’m lost and I don’t know what to do. I’m so far from God and He’s so mad at me. I’m in a ditch so deep that I dug myself in and all I can think about is hells flames. I DONT WANT TO GO TO HELL!!! My hunger for righteousness is gone and I need deliverance from my life of sin. The devil is talking to me as a type this out telling me to go out and enjoy my life but in the back of my head I’m still desiring to be filled with the Holy Spirit. I need a breakthrough!!!!! I have a hard time with surrender that’s my biggest downfall. I smile on the outside but my soul is sick on the inside

    • Go back to your first fruits… Acts 2:38 (KJV)

      Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.

      Come as you are with your broken and contrite heart – to receive the Holy Spirit who is our Divine Helper, to overcome sin. We are overcomers through Jesus Christ.

      I’ve also sinned and repented, and I have found GOD’s Love, Grace and Mercy is abundant once again. OH, how He Loves Us !

      GOD is Love and His children BECOME Love, by the help of HIS Holy Spirit we are One Loving Family of GOD saved by Jesus our Savior. Millions of us are (or learning to be) Faithful, with GOD’s help according to the Bible. ALL Glory and ALL Honor and ALL Praise belongs to the One True GOD, our Savior and His Spirit, whom guides all who seek Him.

  13. all my life I have made myself out to be the victim I mean in some case I was I am the victim but I continue to allow my past to determine how my future is turning out. I am only 27 years old in I have already spent 5 of my years incarcerated in the department of corrections from the age of 16 years old to 21 years old. then turned around in gave the system another year of my life. I know that GOD is real as well as all that he can do I know that he is very powerful because he has brought me out of so much. I just feel like I cant pray to him right now because every time that he brings me out of an situation I always become another lost child that runs off in be lost in this world trying to do it all on my own when I couldn’t even get myself out of the first situation but know shawntavia quarterman thinks she knows it all now look I’m need GOD again in this time I feel as though I need him more than every, but I cant bring myself to pray because I feel so guilty about turning away from the lord then coming back to him when I need him. I’m currently fight a dependency case to keep custody of my only son in it seems like everyday this battle gets harder in harder in everyone is against me in my back is up against the wall in all I can do is cry myself to sleep because I know the solution to bring my baby home but I’m stuck I my own selfish ways in want to continue to live by the flesh cause I’m to scared to live by the holy spirit. I just want to talk to the LORD in want him to talk back to me in give me some answers to my life my purpose the reason of all the pain in suffering that I go through. I just need to know from GOD my destiny. I have so may questions for him but most of all I want him to bring my son home in show me how to live the life that he for me. the lord tells us in Jerimiah 29:11 that he has plans to prosper us in not to harm us in just want to know how do I prosper LORD.

  14. 2 1/2 years ago I came back to the Lord, and I know it is for good now. There’s a lot to my story that I am not proud of at all. I was away for more than 25 years. I sincerely believed when I repented and asked the Lord to take me back, that He definitely did. I was reading in Hebrews and came across Hebrews 6:4-6 &10:26; then Matthew 12:31-32. I am a little confused now about those passages. I had been, and am, saved and filled with the Holy Spirit, but these scriptures are making me uncomfortable. Do I fall into these categories? Am I now considered a blasphemer of the Holy Spirit by backsliding, and will not be forgiven? I never was a non-believer and never did I denounce my faith or say that the Holy Spirit was not real. I just backed away and didn’t live for the Lord. I know the Lord took me back and is with me, but these scriptures are saying otherwise. …I really need clarification so my insides can relax. Are the verses in Hebrews referring to me, where I can’t be forgiven once I backslid? Thank you so much!

    • Perhaps these verses stands out for a deeper understanding of something that you need to overcome, and may not be aware of it or the depths of it. Sometimes we accept what we think in life as gospel and we hardly give it a deep thought when we have already accepted it. So, be faithful and reflect on the Word that the LORD is showing you, so that you can advance to the next level, if you understand that the LORD gives us things to do or places to go without telling us everything until we are obedient. Then He gives us the next step or thing to do. The LORD tests us for building our faith and obedience, to strengthen us, and not to harm us. Do these things so that your joy may be full.

    • Friend of you havent blasphemed the Holy Ghost; then you can be forgiven
      To blaspheme the Holy Ghost you must have been genuinely saved.. and then turn from
      The Christian faith for good : denying the truth of the faith.. teaching others the same and actually become an enemy of the fairh

  15. I know that God will forgive and take us back, but what about some one who has walked away from God so long that he himself isn’t able to get back or turn back to God? Is it possible that a person can walk away and decide not to turn back to God even when his life is being destroyed and instead of turning back he fights out of anger and out of not understanding? This is a good article and answers a lot of questions yet there are so many other questions. Many people in this world don’t feel the spirit pulling them anymore and can’t get back. Is there a place where a pharoah’s heart is produced in a person while living?

  16. I was a follower of Jesus full of the Holy Ghost a preacher, and I let temptation overcome me I left the church, and went out into the world. I am now much older and after many, many sins in my life.. I want to find Jesus again …. my days and nights are filled with guilt and shame.. I destroyed my entire life to the point I am totally alone in this world. No family or friends for they all quit having any thing to do with me.. I have spent the last couple of months, praying, fasting and reading the word, but my Faith seems far from me… My mind is trying to convince me that I don’t believe in Jesus anymore and I have done too much for him to forgive me… I am struggling to find my way back to believe, to receive His forgiveness, and be filled with His Spirit.. I just ask for prayer, and am so sorry to see others struggling with the same things… May God have mercy on us all….

    • The woman with the alabastar jar came to Jesus full of worshipful adoration and love for Him. Why? Because He refuse to condemn her despite knowing what she had done but gave her the command – go and sin no more. So many in this place has expressed such remorse alike this woman, will the Lord turn us away? It is the enemy who condemns. God knows how to save us – salvation belongs to Him. If the gospel is so fragile – who can be saved. Has the Lord brought you to the end of yourself then to forsake you – Contend for the faith. Your work is to believe in the Son of God. They overcome him by the Blood of the Lamb and their confession. Stop looking back look to the cross and to Jesus.

  17. All these comments have deeply touched me, and have echoed my own heart’s struggles. It’s so painful to see so many people suffering. I believe GOD wants HIS Kingdom to come literally here on earth. I don’t believe struggling with sin and its like are qualities of this Kingdom.

    Oh GOD, help us…we need You desperately. It’s very difficult to believe there’s no note condemnation for us when we keep doing stuff that displease you. What good is forgiveness if we still sin? Is not punishment that comes with definite victory over the struggles? I prefer forgiveness and definite victory. Oh GOD, help us…Your children are crying out to You. Oh for the Fullness of Your Spirit…

    Oh GOD of the Fathers, be the GOD of the Children…

  18. This has really helped me. i am so happy that God loves me and is willing to accept a filthy, dirty sinner like me. Sin cant be described, the way it sips into my life even when i think i am in the right standing with Christ is what i cant explain then i realise that minutes becomes hours then days, months and i am far far, too far away. Oh!! how miserable. When i want to be friends with Jesus and ask for help, there is this feeling of shame that i cant even kneel in private to say “God am sorry” because the guilt overshadows me whispering “you cant be forgiven, you are worse than the devil… But something keeps telling me ” I still love you” just ask for forgiveness and we will start afresh. Irrespective of what you have done, God still loves you. If you fall, rise up again, ask for forgiveness, in you memory recapture things that led you to sin, write them down and try to avoid them. Read your bible and always pray to God to guide your thoughts, actions and word on daily basis. Remember the evil devil never rest, dont give him even a pinhole chance in your heart because a pinhole is even more than enough for him to act. As we try to become better people, may our Good, Gracious and Generous God give us the enablement.

  19. I too thank God for this article. There are so many sites on the web that left me feeling condemned. Your article has given me hope.

    Six months ago I turned my back fully on my faith. I’d been sliding for some time, firstly into pride as I started a ministry in the local church, then seeking the good opinion of others before my relationship with God, then into pornography. When I became ill with ME I decided that God didn’t love me after all, and that I just wanted to give up on life.

    Three months ago I attempted to take my own life through carbon monoxide poisoning. Although I was rescued before I died, I now have the consequences of that attempt in the from of seriousness health problems. Each day I feel as though I am at the end of my life.

    I feel so ashamed and guilty for my sins of pride, lust and gluttony….but mostly for turning away from God and His love for me after all He has blessed me with in my life. I fell in love with Jesus and God but over a few years my love grew colder and I started worshipping these false idols.

    Today I recommitted my life to Jesus Christ and God. I know that this is the only way. I know this means prayer, bible study, worship, fellowship and discipline. Even if God does cast me into hell at the end of my life, I still want to worship Him and fear Him. I need to learn how to do that again.

    I really believe God loves us and forgives us our sins. My wife is a living testament to that, and if she as a mortal can forgive me than I’m sure that Gods love is even greater than that.


    • I ask God to back into my for a year of doing horrible sins and I struggle with fear for last few days to subside or to be taking away be Gods healing hand l am waiting patiently of God’s healing touch on my life.i am also for the images to leave my mind to have the peace of return back I won’t have to take emergency pills so the thoughts of suicide will leave my thoughts and to reconcile with God. my relationship with family again it going to take a lol faith to pray to restore my marriage and as a father tomorrow will be the first day of fasting for changing my life through Gods direction for the next step

  20. i really thank God for your article. really God has spoken me through this. i committed so many sin after knowing the lord . i repented also but that was not true. but here after i want to walk with lord please pray for me . and guide how i can repent truly because of false repentance my heart became hard and also write that how i can come out from phonograph and masterbutation .may the God bless you for your ministry.

  21. After taking a look at your page and reading what you’ve said about God?,i still think he will refuse to take me into his holy home somewhere in Heaven,after what he’s uncovered in my life that he’s upset and furious about?..All I can tell you is that after meeting God in his supreme courtroom in person to hear God’s verdict and his reasons for sending me to jail for life or in other words straight into the Lake Of Fire with other sinners with the same situation as myself as the only way to deal with such dirty sinners in both/either in/by accidentally and on purpose format in/of their sins.I also can tell you that I have already forgiven God for his decision in sending me away and watch me simply melt away in the fiery lake.I feel sad for your God who I will never get to meet after my final trip.

    • Salvation isn’t an emotion. I personally am a very emotional person and I get caught up in how I feel. It doesn’t matter if you feel forgiven or not, if you have repented of your sins, God WILL forgive you if you turn back to him. King David is described as a man after God’s own heart, and he was just as susceptible as sin as the rest of us. He was a liar, an adulterer, and a murder, but he turned back to God, and God forgave him, we expect to be punished for our sins, and there are absolutely natural consequences but God’s wrath for our every sin was taken out on Jesus Christ. We always think that we are the exception to God’s love, I have been struggling with this, but we aren’t, and the fact is we aren’t. Emotions are easy to manipulate and just because you can’t feel him doesn’t mean he’s not there. God knew what you would before you did it, He’s already at the end of your life, nothing we do is new to God. His love is not dependent on our love for him or our behavior we would all be in trouble if that was the case.

      “God didn’t overlook your sins, lest He endorse them. He didn’t punish you, lest He destroy you. He instead found a way to punish the sin and preserve the sinner. Jesus took your punishment, and God gave you credit for Jesus’ perfection.”–Max Lucado, Grace More Than We Deserve Greater Than We Imagine.

      God is a just, merciful, and loving God. He must punish sin, but he remembers how weak and finite we are and in His infinite love and mercy He gave us a way back home. No matter how many times we fall, we must pick ourselves back up, repent, and start over again. We cannot live by how we feel, but on His truth. And we have to forgive ourselves. Here’s a few quotes to think on.

      ” I think that if God forgives us we must forgive ourselves. Otherwise, it is almost like setting up ourselves as a higher tribunal than Him.”–C.S. Lewis

      “Fallen man is not simply an imperfect creature who needs improvement: he is a rebel who must lay down his arms.”

      –C. S. Lewis, Mere Christianity (New York: HarperCollins, 1952/2001), 56.

      • what happens when God is restoring you and tries to give you back holy spirit and presence and i got afraid and told him not too because i thought pride would rise up in me again and i would fail him. I am lost and empty o n inside feel dead spiritually. He had called me to teach word and to be a prophet and i dont want to die and go to hell and live without him. Please i need hope Marsha

        • Dear Marsha, Repent whole heartedly, and from now on ALWAYS say “YES LORD”, as He Loves us and He IS the Maker and Lover of our souls.

          I was afraid of the Holy Spirit at first too. But, this Gentle Spirit does not condemn, and the blessings are out of this world a real joy. I am SO glad to KNOW the LORD, and not just know ABOUT Him and His fullness therein.

      • Hi Lynn, I found this site and was reading the comments and recently i beleive i was given a “wake up call” from God. I am 51. When i was 17 a freind asked me if i knew Jesus died for me. My automatic response was “yes”. A year later i prayed and asked God for a job one night , and the very next morning i had one, phone rings and a freind says-“ theres a job for you and ur brother” and working right next to me was a very devout Christian man singing worship all day to the Lord. Years went by, i was 25
        and im feeling a realy strong urge to read the bible. Oh ya and all along after that first job, all the jobs i got were christian run. So one day a freinds mother from the Gospel hall (closed brethern) asked me, are you saved?? She said maybe you have “ stumbling blocks” preventing you from moving forward in a relationship with him”, and i realy felt as though my physical training were becoming an idol as well as a car i cherished and i was being physical with a girlfreind. So i asked God specifically. “God, if these three things are preventing me from a relationship with you, when i get to my girlfriends house, as SOON as she greets me at the front door, would you have her mention something about this book of mine she had . A cold chill came over me because-she said it!! I tried to break up with her, but like you, im sensitive and very emotional. I couldnt do it and i kept the dumb car and continued body building. My life was a mess. I guess my question to you is this, does God save you first, then u move forward with the relationship?

        • Run to GOD just as you are > Repent your sins from the depths of ALL your heart and be baptized > to get GOD’s free gift of the Holy Spirit, and then you will have the Perfect Helper in which you need to rid the other sins and to gain a blessed full life. – That’s the short version of necessity. GOD can teach you more.

  22. I back slide from God 10 years ago and it seems like I have blaspheme the Holy Spirit because I no longer felt guilty for my sins and touched by God’s love for me. I sought God after this happen, but my motive seem to only be for ho God would benefit me and not hurting him by sinning against him. I would be open to repenting and surrendering my life to him because I do see that have done wrongs to him and that sin is bad, but I don’t feel sincerely remorseful for wronging God. However, I seeking because I know I should and because his way is better or that I truly what I need because his Bible said and it’s true. Not to mention all of the wonderful testimonies I have heard of God and his way being wonderful. So my concern is I would be open to admitting my wrongs and surrendering because it seem reasonable to me to do, but my heart doesn’t feel sincerely wrong for my wrongdoings and moved by God’s love for me. I’ve ask for God to help me with this, but he never seems to answer my prayer. I feel very hopeless and believe I very well may be doom to death.

  23. I really want Jesus to take me back, I don’t want to run own life. I lost salvation and need him to run my life. I do not want to run own life I was rebellious. I can not live like this I want you to be lord of life. I do not want to live like this. Turned from faith, I will die. I need Jesus to be the head of my life. Help I am serious. Hebrews 6. I need Jesus to take me back

    • also a hell thought was playing over and over in my mind to point where i thought it was coming from God, so i accepted to go there but then said to God first i will destroy christian daycare business and then self. then hardened heart against him and left faith. Then god told me out of family for this and Jesus said I would be going to hell. and on top of it I have a reprobate mind. Please i need to be saved again. Marsha

      • Whenever you are not working or visiting family – avoid everything except the LORD GOD. Bathe in the Word (read) and pray on your face continuously!! That is where the LORD will answer you!

  24. At this point, I don’t even know if God even wants to hear my prayers anymore. I gave my life to Him in 2013, but lived in fear of Him for two years in a church that abused me and taught me that He was nothing but a monster who wanted to punish me for making even the smallest of missteps. I finally left in April of 2015 and was traumatized, suicidal and had PTSD when I came out of that congregation. 2015 was the year of years for me and God showed up in so many ways. I was baptized that August at the church I now call home and when it happened, it was like I was seeing Him for the first time because I truly was. I saw He wasn’t a God of punishment and fear. I also saw that He was allowing me to go through that stuff to prepare me for the calling He placed on my life. When that period of time was over He began pouring out every spiritual and material blessing that I could imagine on me and I was finally at peace and had joy that I had never felt in my entire life. For the first time in my existence I felt like I was free to live and be alive and happy.

    But trauma runs deep and it wasn’t long though before the old fears started to creep back in. I started to doubt that all of these wonderful things were really from God and my doubts turned into absolute terror that if I enjoyed them even more than I had already allowed myself to, that I was giving myself a license to sin and that God would punish me by ripping those things away from me and making my life even worse than it had been before I got baptized. I ended up making some bad decisions thinking that it was what I had to do to keep God from making my worst fears come true and by the time I figured out I was wrong, it was too late. All of those things were gone and I destroyed the new life He had given me before it even had a chance at taking root.

    It’s been almost a year and a half since all of that happened and nothing has changed for me. I’m like a corpse walking around and I’m afraid that if I come back to God, He’ll hurt me and I believe He is and will always be angry with me for what happened. I want so badly to have made a different choice and there isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t desperately beg and plead with Him to let me go back in time and change things. Why bother to come back when God will never allow me to have anything like that ever again? I go forward only because I have to and my hope is almost gone because I’ve been waiting for Him to show up and He hasn’t. He may restore and renew for others, but not for someone like me. What hurts worse is knowing that I could have had the most amazing and blessed life if only I hadn’t let those old fears trip me up and even though daily I tell God the only reason I did those things was because I was scared and wanted to be safe after what I had been through, He still only sees the wrong that I did and does not take what I pray into account. I once had the chance to eat until I was full, but now I’m going to have to get by and survive on crumbs from the table. It’s only a matter of time now before He turns His back on me and at this point I’m just waiting for Him to destroy me and cast me off forever. God says He wants us to enjoy our lives, but some of us have lost that chance for life and aren’t worth restoring…

    • GOD is Love and His children BECOME Love, by the help of HIS Holy Spirit we are One Loving Family of GOD saved by Jesus our Savior. Millions of us are (or learning to be) Faithful, with GOD’s help according to the Bible. ALL Glory and ALL Honor and ALL Praise belongs to the One True GOD.

      You have not felt the fullness of His grace yet. RUN TO GOD AND PRAY WITH ALL THAT IS WITHIN YOU… Be Blessed On Purpose!! GOD bless you!!!

  25. Well, the above is all fine and good, but what happens when GOD LEAVES YOU?!!? I know there are some who say this can’t / doesn’t happen, but they are absolutely wrong. I refused to lie to clients at CH Robinson, and was forced out as a result, my boss, screaming at me when I told him I don’t lie to clients, “YES WE DO!” The result? Two years later I am still out of work, and the lies being told by H/R at CHR torpedo any attempt I have at getting a new one, since when a potential employer calls to check my work at CHR, they are told lies about me, strangely enough, lies that I was a bad employee, though they leave out their definition of “bad”, namely, someone who won’t lie to clients. Where is God in all this? I’ll tell you where, NOWHERE! I’ve never be so abandoned (and YES that is what it is!) by God, and so helpless. I still pray, and ask for His help, as with CHR lying about the, there is NO chance of a new job without His intervention. So far? He’s let the liars (CHR) prosper, and those who won’t lie die on the vine. You can say things will “be right someday” but someday doesn’t pay the mortgage or put food on my table. God’s timing, if not right now, is just plain too late. And, so far, all I’ve had is God’s timing. I’m done worshipping a God who can so blatantly dump one of his good (not perfect) followers in that followers’ most urgent time of need.

    • The world is the problem. When we follow it, for any acceptance, ANY! When we are not following God and obedient, the outcome, well it looks like the world we live in, those who follow their own way. Being angry at God for not supplying you with worldly things is a lot like a child tantrum…buy this for me, if you don’t you don’t love me.
      Satan wants us to feel like we’re a lost cause, we aren’t and he knows it, why would he keep trying? We must not give in to the distorted ways and guilt to torment us until we give up….pray always!
      Know you are not here to stay in flesh, the battle is the spirit. Put on the Armor of God.
      Galatians 6:10-20.

    • Jim. I feel your pain and am battling some anger issues with God myself right now
      I can relate to feeling punished for following Gods will. Most recently I was praising Him to others and came under witchcraft. I used to be a witch (have repented), I had lucid dreams showing me, and in my heart (small still voice). Well I am under full attack even though I fought fears of this happening (before when I was afraid to worship him in public). I needt to think this would happen and He reminded me that He is stronger than them. I could not be affected because Christ is my King… but yet im fighting it alone. It is a horrible taunting battle of the mind with temptations mixed in, all right after my family and friends abandoned me.
      Plus He rewarded my abusive live in bf after he told me to leave him (bc he didnt want yo marry) but I have been really struggling since. People would treat me poorly and I would bless them and thank him for His strength. It’s how I got through this life depending on Him alone!
      Nowhere in my heart did I want to turn from him, seeking Him daily, fighting sin and temptation, checking my thoughts, lessing my enemies, confessing my sins, repenting, rebuking the devil, asking him to show me hidden sin, dreaming of the kingdom and the rug got pulled from under me. I wasn’t ready. If I had chosen to backslide, I’d understand. I was in a deep relationship with Him at complete peace. Is this a test? Im failing. I can’t live without him but I have to cause where is He?
      God does pull back just like He pulled back with Job and the psalmist.
      I know He loves me buy I’m having a hard time thinking He wont trick me and snatch me out of the earth while I’m backsliding. I am so filled with anger im having a hard time humbling myself to ask for forgiveness with a contrite heart. I want to so bad but I’m still in the middle of the storm and I cant see Him! I’m afraid that I am slipping, I’m getting angrier by the day and putting in my heart to never make myself a target again by sharing my faith since Hes not going to protect me against witches. I know this is the enemy’s plan but what am I supposed to do???? Do I want to risk His presence again if He ever returns? This mind game is driving me nuts and I wish it would end already. I dont know what He expects of me. You cant be my drug and then just pull away? I am in withdrawal! I cant even read the bible or pray without rolling my eyes and yelling at him. So theres distance on my part too now. I have lost so much hope that I have even started engaging in a sin (pornography) just to try to feel some relief. Mind you I wasn’t doing this before this happened. It’s like going to the bottle after a break up. I dont yet have a husband and I’ve been abstinent for years and ave had no release waiting on him to send me a husband and he never did that either. I’m rebelling right now trying to get His attention but it’s a failed plan because He can end me right now. because I’m desperate for him. But I’m getting mad all over again. FATHER GOD HELP ME!!

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